This month, I had big plans.
Baking, crafting, sewing, gifting, family pictures, Christmas cards sent out early, and so on...well
Family pictures have not been taken, which means no cute Christmas card from the Cromars for the first time in almost 5 years, I have crafters block, everything I have tried has not been successful.
My baking skills are gone, disappeared, as if the Christmas Grinch has stolen them from me
i burned the caramel I was making for neighbor treats, I burned the chocolate I was melting for neighbor treats, the bread that I've been baking for over a year tasted horrible, and here we are 5 days before Christmas and I have not baked any treats for the fear of what may happen.
My sister's breastfeeding cover remains cut out pieces waiting to be sewn, and the gifts I was making for the ladies in the family was another fail that I would rather not even describe....
So I was feeling pretty down on myself, and stressed about gifts for people, and what will they think since I haven't made them anything, and how sad they sent us a Christmas card and we didn't send one to them, and it has been eating me up, along with other things when i start feeling insecure....so today I decided to STOP
I have 4 beautiful children that are so excited about Christmas, I have a man by my side that loves me unconditionally and I love him, we had a wonderful family vacation last month, we have decorated our tree together, we have made Christmas ornaments, we have made gingerbread houses together, we have a home, we have health, we have the Priesthood in our home, we have the Gospel, we have the knowledge of the true meaning of Christmas, we have amazing family and friends that love and support us, we have so much to be thankful for, so I'm done stressing about what we didn't do, or what to give, or spending money on things that are not important. So I hope everyone has a wonderful Christmas! I love everyone around me. No gifts. Just love, cheesy I know, but I don't want to worry anymore about
things that are not important. I hope to serve, to be a good wife, mother, friend and daughter, and to share my testimony with those around me. I love the Gospel of Jesus Christ, I know he lives, I know he took our sins, and died on the cross for us, that he Resurrected and that he lives, I know that he loves and knows each and everyone of us, individually. He knows our struggles, our strengths, our needs, our joys, and he knows our hearts. This Christmas our families have decided to not do gifts for each other, we are having the kids exchange one gift with one another, and that's all. With this, we hope that our children remember what Christmas is all about, the birth of our Savior Jesus Christ. That's what matters to us, that's what matters most to me. I have no doubt in my mind where I would be in my life if I didn't have this knowledge, and it would not be a good place. i know that for sure!
So Merry Christmas from the Cromars!